"Don't be afraid of the space between your dreams and reality. If you can dream it, you can make it so." - Belva Davis

“My Angel” by: Jamie Nicolet

You called me “My Angel” from very early on

But little did I know, that you would soon be gone

I gave you my heart and we had many happy years

But the Lord for you had other plans

And in them, my worst fears. ₍₅₎

To have your sister, my close friend,

Tell me of your sorry state

Visions clouded o’er my eyes—

Thoughts of the plans we made,

fading now to blood stain red

before they vanished altogether. ₍₁₁₎

For every time I left your side,

to drive home late at night.

For every time you worried,

it would be me in your position.

For every time I laughed ,

at your incessant apprehension. ₍₁₇₎

Your worries now reality,

 my laughter fades to tears

I’m sorry that I never listened

I’m sorry you’re not here  ₍₂₁₎

It was a night like any other and

you were coming home

but it could not be avoided

For you were all alone  ₍₂₅₎

It was his fault! he shouldn’t have been driving!

He took from me my one desire

My strength and my protector ₍₂₈₎

No Mother, Father, child, son

No daughter, sister, brother

should have to feel this way

Be robbed of time together  ₍₃₂₎

The years we lost,

The memories never to be made

The thought of them shall linger

You will never be forgotten

Just let me make that clear  ₍₃₇₎

Reminiscing, looking back

I smile at the thought—

of times gone by,

of jokes, and fights

And how it all began  ₍₄₂₎

Like a mason builds a home,

safe and sturdy from the storm.

You labored hard and slowly—working bit by bit.

Brick by Brick of Love and trust

Built thorough and unchanging. ₍₄₇₎

It is you who’s now “My Angel”

Our role is now reversed

Although I know you’re with me

Looking down from Heavens Gate  ₍₅₁₎

I’m lonely as I lay at night –

Toss and turning like the sea

I credit you for who I am

You brought out the best in me (55)

Day by day, and week by week

I pray you’ll heal this hurt

For everything there is a time

to miss you—there’s a season  

I know now, that I must move on

and say a last good-bye.

I love you with my heart and soul

but there’s no tears I’ve left to cry.